How does one keep a blog about writing if one doesn’t write?

Let’s not talk about NaNo lets talk about music, since NaNo (at least my NaNo) appears to be dying on its arse. This afternoon I was watching Grey’s Anatomy (a recent addiction and no, I’m not seeking help) and a song came on in the background which I am also now addicted to. A quick search on Google led me to a song called ‘Scratch’ by Kendall Payne. A quick tour on Amazon and a quick download on iTunes and it’s been playing ever since.

I’ve never heard of Kendall Payne, which is surprising since she was involved in the whole Lilith Fair thing that defined so many fantastic female singer songwriters (not least, Sarah Mclachlan) and I thought I’d heard pretty much everyone involved. Clearly not. It turns out that Kendall is a christian singer which, to be honest, would put me off had I not heard her amazing voice already. Fortunately she seems to be one of those people who has other stuff to write about as well as religion. I have nothing against religon, it’s just not my thing thank you very much.

Anyway, on her website, Kendall explains the ‘meaning’ of the song:

I hung up the phone with him, not comforted in the least. I opted to call my boyfriend, who was even less comforting. He gave me the line, “We need to talk, it’s not bad, but it’s not good.” Which in guy code means, “I want to break up with you, but I don’t want you to make me feel bad about it.” And to top it off, I heard voices in the background at his house. I asked him who was there. He said some girls had just stopped by and they were going to watch a movie. The hot tears flooded my eyes.

I felt totally alone in that San Francisco hotel room. The first lyric literally poured out of me, “It’s a big girl world now, full of big girl things. And every day I wish I was small.”

So maybe it’s a love song, maybe it’s a song crying out to God, maybe it’s song for jaded grownups who have bought into the sham. I think the finds a different meaning for me every time I sing it.

Enough said - try the album.